Falter
This time, lost as I am In the midst of these recurrent memories Damned hope, you should leave me for good. My biggest fear has come true. It’s not that I don’t want to scream Not that I don’t want to run away Not that I don’t want to fight Not that I don’t want to be with you Though I try, I falter. This time I cannot compete I cannot compete for you I cannot compete against it. I’ve understood. There is someone to hold my hand so hard But I can’t anchor to it. I’m so frail and ashamed I cannot fight when the battle’s won. That night I certainly saw There are so many things you just won’t do That night was torture. My heart broken to pieces while I act on a smile Though I try, I falter. Though I walk, I falter. Even on the ground, I falter. Even on my dreams, I falter.