oddities, thoughts and lucid dreams

All I know is what I feel and what I feel is that I’m sinking What I feel is that I love you and it has become overwhelming Overwhelming because we are planning our life but we live in a lie I am pretending we are ok. You are nodding to my desire. There is a part of me wanting to disappear and eradicate this dying drought Unabashedly we keep leading us on over and over. I thought we’ve changed but I’ve never seen a change without a fire. There’s no change without a fire. There’s a hole on the ground and I seem to grow stuck I’ve fallen and see no way out. Melt us or harden us together. Destroy us or rebuild us together. Turn us to ashes or make us stronger There’s no change without a fire Burn me Friday May 9th 12:28

There are few words to say, these few words will never expire. They will always remain attached to the remaining air between you and me. Words like I love you that were never uttered anymore and only will burst with some substance within. You will never understand. what I feel when I see you Seems impossible to keep living this way Seems impossible to keep this burden We are hooked for life now And things will always be the same. We cannot live with our without each other I’m sharpened, if it is an obsession I wanna die with it. I want to be carried away. If I could melt your ice If I could break your fall If needs were drowned with a bit or lots of dope. and have come to conclusions We will always pull away and attract. Like moths to the flame. Like positives poles. Emptiness, misunderstood loneliness. It seems you are the only person in the world not willing to be loved and the only person I can love more than myself. You never leave me, you never stay. And my heart grows bigger wit