Not The One To Blame

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Beating myself up for no reason.
Wondering where I went wrong.
self-sabotaging, filled with loathing and regret.

Turns out, life has its way to let you know.
have I learnt my lesson.
Trust myself and what my heart whispers so clearly.

No heart betrays its owner.

Turns out, I'm not as messed up as I thought, I was never the one to blame.
I knew from the beginning it wasn't me but I neglected myself.
Never again.
I'm not the one to blame.

Liar, hypocrite, narcissistic, deluded, distorted, medicated.
You won't remain unharmed.
You'll pour ruin upon yourself.

May 1st 2013

10.00am

Markish

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