THE SLIGHTEST CHANCE OF A SPARK
i.
Is there any way to get around this?
How can I move on?
Will you just forget what we’ve grown?
Who brainwashed you?
Who told you to stop showing love?
Who told you things just don’t make sense?
Who are you now?
ii.
The immensity of this solitude
The growing flame of desire left to quench
In this amazing state of mind called emptiness
I can’t find anything else but you and me
Wherever I go, I am insulted by failure.
Allured by the mere image of the first day.
I am falling deeper and don’t know how to escape.
iii.
If things were easy to solve
I wish I could erase you from my heart
And not hurt again
So breakable, so fragile but tough on myself
[… “is it wrong to want to stay?” …]
iv.
All this heartache followed by desperation
Makes me see I am still under your spell
Spell you never cast.
Get your mind out of me
Leave me swollen and shaken
Tell me I am not yours anymore
Will this just serve to bury the past?
And I see the mistakes of the past
Seem so fresh now.
v.
How can we just stop being who we were?
The greatness of my availability of heart
Has decimated my emotions to the point
I can't even see anything else but you.
I dream of you, the first thought when I open my eyes is you.
The last thought when falling asleep is you.
vi.
The most incredible human story of my books
Has been blown by ruthless cold and wind
Wind blown with your mouth.
Expectations failed, and even like this I am
Not able to tell you, you are the source of such despair.
And you don't seem to mind.
I feel I’m wasting my time on having my hopes set high.
vii.
And I can't see a clear day.
I want someone to hold my hand; someone who understands and makes me feel loved.
I never thought of walking away from you.
Now I'm realizing there could be no other way.
The thrill of loving has stopped my condition of laughter a little more each day.
viii.
And the most ironic fact is that I believe in what love can do
I'm not the one to be in awe this time.
Surrounded by the need of giving love,
I don't see my love for you growing smaller.
My heart is full of burning desire to shed my love.
Love that is canalized to you only.
Need a deviation target to start aiming well.
Somehow I finally end up alone each night.
ix.
So we were just a coincidence of cosmos
Once in a lifetime.
x.
Followed by the thoughts of you
Understanding you’re not around.
Running around in circles
My heart is tired of trying to
Find the light of recognition in your eyes
To see if I see the slightest chance of a spark.
August 31, 2008
Plaza del sol
10:30 am
Is there any way to get around this?
How can I move on?
Will you just forget what we’ve grown?
Who brainwashed you?
Who told you to stop showing love?
Who told you things just don’t make sense?
Who are you now?
ii.
The immensity of this solitude
The growing flame of desire left to quench
In this amazing state of mind called emptiness
I can’t find anything else but you and me
Wherever I go, I am insulted by failure.
Allured by the mere image of the first day.
I am falling deeper and don’t know how to escape.
iii.
If things were easy to solve
I wish I could erase you from my heart
And not hurt again
So breakable, so fragile but tough on myself
[… “is it wrong to want to stay?” …]
iv.
All this heartache followed by desperation
Makes me see I am still under your spell
Spell you never cast.
Get your mind out of me
Leave me swollen and shaken
Tell me I am not yours anymore
Will this just serve to bury the past?
And I see the mistakes of the past
Seem so fresh now.
v.
How can we just stop being who we were?
The greatness of my availability of heart
Has decimated my emotions to the point
I can't even see anything else but you.
I dream of you, the first thought when I open my eyes is you.
The last thought when falling asleep is you.
vi.
The most incredible human story of my books
Has been blown by ruthless cold and wind
Wind blown with your mouth.
Expectations failed, and even like this I am
Not able to tell you, you are the source of such despair.
And you don't seem to mind.
I feel I’m wasting my time on having my hopes set high.
vii.
And I can't see a clear day.
I want someone to hold my hand; someone who understands and makes me feel loved.
I never thought of walking away from you.
Now I'm realizing there could be no other way.
The thrill of loving has stopped my condition of laughter a little more each day.
viii.
And the most ironic fact is that I believe in what love can do
I'm not the one to be in awe this time.
Surrounded by the need of giving love,
I don't see my love for you growing smaller.
My heart is full of burning desire to shed my love.
Love that is canalized to you only.
Need a deviation target to start aiming well.
Somehow I finally end up alone each night.
ix.
So we were just a coincidence of cosmos
Once in a lifetime.
x.
Followed by the thoughts of you
Understanding you’re not around.
Running around in circles
My heart is tired of trying to
Find the light of recognition in your eyes
To see if I see the slightest chance of a spark.
August 31, 2008
Plaza del sol
10:30 am
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